And that’s when it hit me... do you ever feel like things happen exactly the way they’re meant to? When I reread that 2014 blog, it felt like I had unknowingly written my future. The post was titled “Still Waiting” (you can read it here first before continuing). What blew my mind was how it started with me sharing about a song I had composed. Then with these words: “I’d love to share with you the lyrics of the song I just made but I feel like it’s not publish-worthy and needs a little editing. Don’t worry, in time I will with a musical score.”

Like... GIRL, IF ONLY YOU KNEW!

Music has always been a love of mine, even if I couldn’t sing or play an instrument. For a long time, I thought that meant I’d never have a place in the industry until one comedy movie changed my perspective: School of Rock. There’s a scene where Miranda Cosgrove’s character didn’t want to be a “groupie,” and Jack Black told her she had the most important role of all: being the manager. That scene gave me a sense of relief. I didn’t need to sing or play an instrument to belong. I could still love music deeply while supporting the people who create it.

Then in 2016 I met my soulmate Migz, a singer and producer, which pulled me even deeper into music. But before I could fully pursue it, I had to chase my childhood dream of becoming a flight attendant as well as try my hand at other businesses (a salon, a milk tea shop) before slowly building what is now WYL Music. Back then, the thought of co-founding an independent music label and helping artists with their music never even crossed my mind. Yet here I am, a decade later, doing exactly that. This part deserves its own post, so I’ll save the details for next time ;)

Now, in my 30s, I’m still waiting. But this time, I know what I’m waiting for. I’m no longer the confused teenager I once was. If my 19-year-old self were reading this, I’d tell her I’m proud of her for trusting her gut, for believing in God’s purpose, and for embracing her journey. Yes, you’re a jack-of-all-trades, and yes, you have adult ADHD but instead of letting that stop you, you used it to push forward and that took a lot of courage.

Before I end this post, I just want to honor my friends who made me feel like a fairy 🧚‍♀️ that day Kim Dominic, our photographer (and business partner), Toni and Gab, the pioneers of WYL Music who also happen to be family, Marielle my fairy glam mother for hair and makeup and of course my fiancé for always being so supportive. This portrait shot was impromptu, but wow… the way it turned out deserves to be everywhere. Forgive me though I rarely ever post a front view. Hahaha!

But now old friends are acting strange. They shake their heads, they say I've changed. Well something's lost, but something's gained in living every day.

If you wanna be a singer, or play guitar. Man, you gotta sweat or you won't get far

Cause it's never too late to work nine-to-five, you can take a stand, or you can compromise

You can work real hard or just fantasize, but you don't start livin' till you realize.

Somehow the sun keeps shining upon you while I struggle to get mine.

If there's a light in everybody, send out your ray of sunshine.

1. Reflect. This is the first important thing you should do when dealing with struggles. Stay away from your phone or any distraction for a while and give yourself time to reflect and just think things through. 10-20 minutes of alone time is good enough. This will enable you to face yourself as you are and not what you "should be". Seeing this can reveal a lot about the illusions within. 

2. Read a book. Detach yourself emotionally because most of the time the emotions that come out of negative situations are negative and what better way to do that than to read a book? Currently, I'm reading a book written by Cecilia Ahern (favorite author evahhhh!) and it's funny how the story relates to what I'm going through right now. I swear, I have been overwhelmed with signs, hints and help from the universe! Anyway, it's only been 5 days since I started with the book and I'm already a few pages shy of finishing it. Reading books specifically that of Cecilia Ahern's make me feel like I'm not alone in the battle and someone is also going through the same situation I'm in or even worse. Which leads me to my 3rd point...

3. Remember, it's temporary. Whatever you're going through right now, big or small is just temporary. In a few years time you'll forget about all of those or if ever it did cross your mind one day, you'll probably just laugh it off or remember it as a lesson. As cliche' as this sounds, everything happens for a reason. Your boyfriend of 5 years broke up with you because there's someone out there who is more deserving of your love, you didn't get accepted in the job you wanted probably because there's a better one waiting for you or your parents didn't allow you to go out with your friends today mostly because they sense something bad is going to happen. Just think of it this way, you were put in that situation for a purpose... and that purpose? We have yet to find out. 

Lastly, don't forget that the solution is contained within the problem, if only we will take time to look at it for "what it is"... the journey is the destination. Enjoy it!